Oh.
I see.
He doesn't like like me…
I'm just another name on a list.
The only one that said yes.
Gee that sucks.
I hate myself.
Oh.
I see.
He doesn't like like me…
I'm just another name on a list.
The only one that said yes.
Gee that sucks.
I hate myself.
I GOT ASKED TO HOMECOMING.
By TRISTAN.
My friend.
My buddy, that I used to tease about not being as strong as I was!
Tristan!
I didn't know he liked me!
Well, it sort of makes sense, I guess.
Obviously, since I'm so freaking hot.
No, acctually, we've been close [semi] friends for a while… just…
WOW.
Acctually, first, his friend Brennon asked me for him.
I thought he was joking, but he said he was serious.
I made him go get Tristan so he could ask me face to face.
Tristan came.
I told him i had already made plans to go with my friends, but I'd see him there, and I'd save him a dance.
I HAVE A (SORT OF) DATE TO HOMECOMING!
With… my friend.
Oh, geez, I don't know how to dance.
This sucks.
This is my homecoming outfit (I will not be wearing the necklace).
I'm not wearing makeup, or anything, but this is the CLOTHING.
You have no idea how bad the heels hurt.
The dress is a hand-me-down-loaner from my freind, megan sushi. and the heels. and the necklace.
everything else I bought.
*shudder* panty hose…
I swear it's laughing at me.
I didn't know inanimate peices of paper could be so cruel.
WHAT DOES IT WANT WITH ME?
It just sits there, taped to the locker right next to me, glaring at me whenever I need to get something.
But underneath the glare, it's laughing.
Don't doubt it.
As if it's not bad enough that my FRIENDS call me ugly, now it has to PROVE how ugly I am.
By not getting a date to homecoming.
That's right.
H.O.M.E.C.O.M.I.N.G.
The "Fire and Ice" sign next to my locker expresses it's hate for me quite clearly.
It knows I'm not getting a date.
It just knows it.
I don't know how, but…
Ok, yes I do.
Obviously, it caught on to how extremely undesirable I am.
Since, according to Dylan, looking at me is like pulling teeth with a knife, I'm pretty much screwed in the boys department.
Ok, so Hayley thinks I'm pretty.
Thank's plunkit, but no offense, I don't really feel like going to homecoming with you.
Like a date. Not with you, dear.
Not even SROTS.
Geez O Pete, I'm pathetic.
So here's my other predicament:
I like this guy.
He is in my GT and Spanish class.
He acctually knows my name.
I don't know if he likes me.
I want him to ask me to homecoming.
HAH, like that's gonna happen.
But, in vain hope, I'm prettying myself up as good as I can.
I'm wearing almost clear white nail polish.
I'm going to straiten my hair.
I scrubbed my face vigourously in order to bring down my killer acne.
I am going to get up early tomarrow to do my makeup WELL.
And I'm still going to have absoulutely NO chance.
If he doesn't ask me tommarow, I'm going to try to rally a group date.
If anyone would like to attend, please let me know.
Gosh, I should just brand a huge "L" on my forehead.
EGOTYSTICAL ENERGY
Ever noticed
What people run on?
Like gas in a car
or food for a bird?
I, self
the definition of ego
people are fueled
if they think themselves heros
without success
or money or brains
what else have you got
so you dont feel lame?
Complete disregard of what's inside
Unkindled, unalive
Why have we let the best fall away?
Why do we want only money today?
The true good in humans
is what's in their hearts
not what they wear
not where they start
So, all you people, heed what I say
Don't ask for money
Don't ask for success
They'll come as they may
So don't make a mess
I DREW THE SHORT STRAW
Looking around
What do I see?
Everyone else
Is taller than me
I crane my neck
to see into their eyes
It takes more effort
to see through their lies
Bottom of the food chain
Bottom of the growth chart
But my height doesn't change
what I have in my heart.
REBEL
Announcement of rules
Standards for the day
Flip my hand in disregard
I don't care what they say
The code of conduct
is my dart target
What dress code?
I forget
Rebel of the underdog
Overlooked at first sight
don't tell me to shut up
or I might pick a fight
INTRAPERSONAL DISADVANTAGE
I sit alone
Stop looking at me
broken off from society
Seemingly sad
But inside I'm content
Leave me alone, I'll give my consent
Cast off like a rag doll
Unwanted, unseen
Filled with thoughts of the obscene
Now, not seemingly
I'm crying inside
Maybe, sometimes, I should abide
LOVE IS AN IMPERFECT SCIENCE
I see you
but do you see me?
I ponder the question
set my mind free
I watch your smile
shy and soft
Would you smile for me?
I feel so off
Hair like a cloud
thick, fair, curly
chest not small
but not yet burly
happily, helpfully,
I'd give you my heart
I just can't stand
to see us apart
Fire Haiku
The fire cracks in warmth
The logs burnt white and black
The flames warm my heart
Poem
One sits on a blanket
Reading teen magazines
Three sit at the table
Reading and drinking beer
One sits in a flod out chair
Writing sweet nothings
puoring her heart and soul
out on lifeless blank white pages
with only a pen and her thoughts
Listening to fire crack
And warm her freezing legs
waiting for the little girls
To start to make the smores
Ode to Marshmellows
Little one's like them
Only lightly toasted
Older one's like them
Black and well roasted
But either ways
It's safe to say
The warm white softness
Once you make it there
melts at your tounge
sticking to you hands
and teeth
Where's my toothbrush?