As promised (and made up on the spot), here is my secondary VidCon recap, mostly pertaining to the obscene amount of girls in attendance. This blog will first explore why the amount of females at this event was surprising to me, then move on to discuss why I hate 95% of them. (Girls, not vidcon attendees)
VidCon was AT LEAST 65% female, if not more. I was unhappily surprised about this, because for some reason I don’t see girls sitting in their rooms watching Shane Dawson. I mean, I don’t see girls other than me. I mentioned this to Craig, and he pointed out that more boys probably watch YouTube overall, but they mostly go to find people getting hit in the balls and falling off of things. Girls got into specific people and channels more.
Now moving on to why I hate 95% of my own gender. It’s hard for me to explain, because I really can’t in a coherent way. But it’s true; I often have a strong negative reaction to the majority of girls. Maybe it’s because I have such a hard time relating to them, and maybe it’s just because I see them as competition, but either way, it’s kind of bad. I spent the time I wasn’t sleeping, stalking people for pictures, or listening to the conference glaring at various teenage girls.
I really don’t know what it is! They’re just so annoying! I guess I’m kind of biased, though, since I haven’t had the best of luck with female friends outside of Rachel and a couple others. List? I think so.
1st grade: Rebecca. She wouldn’t let me play with anyone but her, and when I decided that her tyrannical reign over my life needed to end, she flipped out and spent the remainder of her time at that school hitting/kicking/yelling at me.
2nd grade: Anna. Although she wasn’t as dictatorial as Rebecca and we remain cordial acquaintances to this day, she was always quick to remind me that I wasn’t as cool or as tomboyish as her. (The second one was a lie. I think part of my reason for resisting femininity is to posthumously win our second grade “who is more boyish” arguments.)
3rd/4th/5th grade: Carrie. I was never actually friends with this girl, as she was a grade above me and the only connection I had to her was her grandma, who was my busdriver. But she left a bad taste in my mouth anyways because every time Rachel and I were hanging out, she would stop by and steal Rachel, leaving me alone without a word. And that kind of sucked.
6th grade: Kelsey and Brittney. Before our short friendship, they spent their time mocking me behind my back because I was constantly correcting teachers on the pronunciation of my name. Then, when we WERE friends, they spent most of their time dragging me into their near weekly fights and using me as a gossip buffer.
7th grade: I hung out with boys because I was sick of girls.
8th grade: I escaped the boys because they were mean and met the group of girls I would go on to hang out with until graduation.
So I’m not going to continue this list because the rest of my tormentors, you know who you are and you might even still be reading my blog just to have material to mock me with. I just want to say this: it wasn’t fair or OK of you to use my insecurities against me like that because your own insecurities were too much for you to handle, and it also wasn’t fair of you to put something I loved on the backburner to pursue your own selfish interests.
Although I have come to terms with the fact that I am a female and will probably always be one, I still have some reservations about girlishness. However, there is a huge difference between femininity and girlishness, which I discuss in the video below.
Aw dang, Bri. You caught me. The only reason I read your website is to mock you. I’m a horrible person.
Just kidding, I would never do that 🙂
Anyway, I totally agree about most girls being annoying. But many girls aren’t…you just have to find the right balance. Buuuuut most of the time they are, I won’t deny that. There’s something about the female brain that’s just screwed up. haha 🙂 I agree with Craig about the YouTube thing. For suureee.
When I read your list of friends through out the years it made me remember the friends I had when I was younger. I will now go forth to tell you, because I’m procrastinating packing.
In first grade this one girl told me there was a witch in a barn on the playground and that she was going to kill me in the bathtub. I wouldn’t bathe alone for months. She also taunted me constantly and taught me how to be mean to other people…
Second grade I had a friend who used to be so nice to me, we did everything together. Now she won’t even make eye contact with me and talks about me behind my back alllll the time.
Third grade I moved and made new friends. One girl, Kara, came up to me the first day and said, “Hi my name’s Kara. What’s yours? Wanna be friends?” And I’ve been friends with her ever since…she’s kind of like my Rachel. Elementary school was good from then on out.
Then in 7th grade I went through a rough patch and was friends with a girl who would punch me in the throat, tell me I was fat and threatened to sell all my childhood toys.
9th grade I made friends with all these cool kids from the high school that made me laugh a lot. But it ended up costing me one of my best friends because she was mad that I never had time to do anything with her. That’s okay, I guess.
Well, that’s it. I hope you don’t mind me reminiscing on your blog. Haha 🙂
See you tonight lovebug 🙂 <3